Wednesday, October 13, 2010

My Bushie Beer Summit

Trev never wanted Bush.

George W. Bush that is. If I had been old enough in the 80s I would have wanted George H.W. Bush even less. And in the 50s Sen. Prescott Bush, *even* less. So I guess you could say my estimation of the Bushes improves as younger Bush men move up the ranks. Jeb's even better than Dubya...though not as good as he used to be.

Naturally there are enough Bushes for me to have crushes on a couple of 'em. This one is more for old time's sake. For this one my crush derives maybe 90% from this story and his mugshot.

And squishy as Dubya himself may have been on federal spending and government intervention in education, health care, and free speech (not to mention pushing democracy on reluctant third-worlders instead of righteous annihilation), he was ALL MAN here and even here.

While Trev is as fascinated by the Bush dynasty as anyone, and recognizes that they are as a clan both more politically successful and generally way better looking than the Kennedys, I am not now, nor have I ever been a "Bushie." I never campaigned or worked for Dubya, although he somehow wrangled my grudging, halfhearted vote twice.

So it could only have been through a serendipitous turn of events that Trev found himself knee-deep in Bushie gossip over adult beverages last night - my very own Bushie Beer Summit!

I shall spare identifying details (of course!), but here is what I gleaned...

On the Bush White House and its aftermath:

By the second term, Dubya was easily incensed at suggestions that Vice President Cheney was the real decision-maker in the White House. Sounds like by that point a good way to get the President agree to something was to point out Cheney was for the opposite. Of course this usually involved Cheney wanting to do the more politically *conservative* thing.

The picture I got last night confirmed what I have read about conservative Matt Latimer's disappointing experience as a Bush speech writer. Remember - Bush: "I redefined the Republican Party."

That's right, he did do some redefining and we saw the full effect of Dubya's redefinition of the Republican Party in 2006 and 2008. The ultimate result came earlier this year when the overwhelming Democrat majorities in Congress, including a filibuster-proof majority in the Senate, abolished America's health care system.

Thanks for all the redefining, President Bush!

Incidentally, a Latimer column out just yesterday confirms - from the Cheney perspective - the consensus among Bushie Beer Summit participants that the former Veep was not much of an inside player in the Bush White House. No one seems to think Dubya at all approves of Cheney attacking the new president who Bush says, "deserves [Bush's] silence."

In fact, the supposition among these Bushies was that Cheney backed down because his criticism were proving ineffective. I don't think I agree with that. Cheney has after all gone through another major surgery on his heart this past year.

Parties out of presidential power tend to go non-interventionist in the wilderness. My suspicion is that public figures like Cheney, former U.N. Ambassador John Bolton, and former U.N. Ambassador John Bolton's mustache have helped keep a chunk of Republican voters and Republican-leaning independents committed to strong defense and victory over Islamofascism. Of course the Ft. Hood shooter, failed Christmas Day "crotch-bomber," and failed Times Square bomber have also helped keep this set of issues on the front burner for conservatives.

On the Obama White House:

According to Bushie Beer Summit participants, the Obama Administration West Wing and EEOB are chock full of do-nothing, patronage job-holding lazy ex-activists. Maybe not at the David Axelrod or Valerie Jarrett level, but the bulk of White House staff.

The upshot of White House staff slothfulness and having way too many of them is they work in an echo chamber preoccupied by their own internal rivalries. They neglect their former colleagues in the "Professional Left" until it's time to give them orders.

A lot of folks who didn't get into the Administration helped get Obama elected, and rather than collaborate with them, the Administration regards them as mere foot soldiers. So that insight provided me with some background on recent hippie-punching charges by Leftists and scolding from Vice President Biden.

On the shear size of the Obama White House staff, I haven't seen much out there on that to be honest, except for this dust-up over comparing Laura Bush and Michelle Obama's respective taxpayer-funded entourages. But I think it would be a good idea for someone to compare the size of Obama's White House staff versus George W. Bush's.

The idea that Obama's Administration is teaming with unaccountable White House policy czars, though, is clearly embedded in today's political environment. Criticism of the czar model will only grow more prominent when (at least) a likely new Republican House of Representatives dusts off the concept of Congressional oversight. Most operatives I talk to - including Bushie Beer Summit participants - expect Obama to abandon a legislative strategy for implementing "Change" and turn exclusively to Executive Branch regulatory efforts.



(h/t Phil Kerpen)

So it was an interesting contrast for Trev to be around such insidery folk after 20 months reveling in the Tea Party revival. Constitutional conservatives need allies in the ruling class if we want to make any kind of difference with the new majority (majorities?) coming in next year. We need hacks and bureaucratic knife-fighter types and in some states and districts we do need whoever's electable who will play ball.

I just don't want these people to start thinking they are back in charge. We saw what they did with the Republican Party and the legacy of 1980 and 1994 when they held power. Every American will be paying for their capitulations to Progressivism for decades to come.

Now, how about we re-redefine the Republican Party on November 2nd AND give Pelosi, Reid, and Obama what they've got coming to 'em!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Human Dignity and Doom on the George Washington Bridge

Bridge. Gay. Jump. Roommate. Suicide.

Reading only those five words brings me back to some my darkest memories of college. That's where my mind's been for some of today, when I wasn't thinking of this story that is too tragic for words.



I'm not Tyler Clementi (shown above), but I almost was. Suffice to say, as I tried to figure out how to deal with my same-sex attractions as a young adult, I had quite the roller-coaster ride emotionally, philosophically, and spiritually.

Those challenges haven't completely gone away, but they've lessened and changed as I've found friends to talk to about it, homosexual and bisexual men who are serious about pursuing chastity in their lives, and especially hetero guys who genuinely value knowing about me.

I won't blame you for questioning my seriousness about chastity if you follow me on Twitter or Facebook. I can only plead that you consider the possibility that making jokes along those lines might help me avoid living along those lines.

Tyler Clementi's foray into living out things he'd only imagined hasn't gone so well. It seems obvious now, but I wonder how obvious it was to his roommate Dharun Ravi that if a guy asks for privacy - and conceals the fact that it's so he can be romantic with another man - the guy probably won't be okay with his sexual experimentation being literally broadcast to the world. Sure Ravi knew this to some extent, but did he have any clue what he was toying with? I think the truth is neither Clementi nor Ravi knew what they were toying with.

My mind is flooded with questions for both of them, of course especially questions we'll never know the answer to.

I wonder if Tyler Clementi's family knew. Did he have anyone to talk to? Was he at all aware of any avenues besides sexually acting out, and once that was exposed, killing himself? Was jumping from the George Washington Bridge something he'd thought about before and the extreme shame of this occasion just triggered him to act on it?

I wonder what his mix of friends was. Did he consider his roommate a friend? I would have been Tyler's friend. I would have answered any question he had about my experience if we could have talked in a private way. I would have listened to him. I would have told him he was valuable to me just as a fellow man with a soul.

As for Dharun Ravi (pictured below with Molly Wei), I am at least a little bit comforted by how utterly ruined his name is and how much like the scum of the earth he must feel right now.



What if instead of asking Ravi for privacy, Clementi had asked him to talk about where he was at with his sexuality, would Ravi have listened? I can only assume not. I can only assume that to someone like Ravi, Tyler Clementi was more a two-dimensional freakshow than he was a real person. At least that's what I get from this lugubrious tweet of his:

Roommate asked for the room till midnight. I went into molly's room and turned on my webcam. I saw him making out with a dude. Yay.

But Tyler was real. He had a real musical talent, a real smile, and a real heartbeat. And now he doesn't.

I've seen an outpouring of shock and anger at this prank gone so horribly wrong today on Twitter and some in the New York and national media. Naturally, a lot of folks express support for Clementi's family.

I've also already spotted tweets seeking to raise money for gay teen suicide prevention and efforts by gay advocacy groups to renew interest in their "anti-bullying" campaigns. I waited all day for a tweet from Lady Gaga tying this tragedy to her campaign to repeal 'Don't Ask-Don't Tell'. I'm sure there's a "marriage equality" angle too.

You can find all that stuff everywhere else, so I won't feel bad saving my own take for right here.

Tyler Clementi obviously had some level of sexual attraction for men. In a sick way, his acting on it cost him his life. Dharun Ravi may have done exactly what someone would have to do to get Clementi to destroy himself, but Clementi was still the one who did it. Because I see my old self (and some of my yet-current self) in him, I believe that Tyler's fundamental error here was in not accepting his own human dignity. His parents believed in it. I believed in it though I only know of him in death. He didn't believe in it.

Tyler sacrificed some of his dignity to give in to his curiosity at least a couple times. Yet when the bright light of public scrutiny shone down on what he had considered his own secret world, all Tyler could see was what he was ashamed of. All he could see was how broken he was. Maybe all he could see was that he might as well be a two-dimensional carnival character to people like Dharun Ravi and Molly Wei and their friends. I think maybe the worst Tyler saw in himself was all of a sudden just too close to how hundreds or thousands of others saw him. In the end, even on an iconic bridge, on a beautiful night with a spectacular view of Manhattan, the Palisades, and the shimmery water below, all Tyler Clementi could see was certain doom.

Like I said, I was there once. Actually a few times. In my case, when I broke down and told my straight college roommate that I was attracted to men, specifically him, and that I couldn't take my infatuation with him anymore...he held me. It was something he'd never done before nor wanted to. He assured me of his steadfast friendship. He bought me lunch, listened to me, and prayed with me too. Our relationship was sometimes strained after that, though we were doing pretty well five years later when I served as best man at his wedding. But what I noticed most was that when my heart found genuine friendship with this guy, my sexual imagination didn't fixate on him very much anymore.

In fact, I've been blessed to find that real friendships with other men give me in reality what my libido is looking for in fantasy.

Yes, I know that's not the gay experience you're used to hearing. It's still mine and I wish I could have talked with Tyler Clementi about it and listened to him talk about his. I would have told him that there is more for guys like us. There can be friendship, insight, adventure, unselfish love, and forgiveness if you want to look for it. There's so much more than doom.

I'm in New York right now. I got here the day before Clementi leaped to his death, and I'm leaving tomorrow, a day after news of his death broke. On a night when he was in sheer emotional and mental hell across the river, I was in a room catching up, laughing, and praying with other guys living with same-sex attraction. No one said Tyler's name, but we prayed for him nonetheless. I will pray for him and his family by name now. Definitely whenever I see the George Washington Bridge.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Trev's September 11th Anniversary Tweets

08:46: American Airlines Flight 11 crashes into the north face of One World Trade Center (the North Tower) between floors 93 and 99. #911
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09:03: United Airlines Flight 175 crashes into the south face of Two World Trade Center (the South Tower) between floors 77 and 85. #911
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09:29: @George_WBush: "Two airplanes have crashed into the World Trade Center in an apparent terrorist attack on our country." #911
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09:37: American Airlines Flight 77 crashes into the western side of the Pentagon. #911
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09:43: The White House and U.S. Capitol are evacuated. #911
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09:45: The Federal Aviation Administration closes United States airspace ordering all commercial and private aircraft to land. #911
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09:59: Two World Trade Center (the South Tower) collapses. #911
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10:03: United Airlines #Flight93 crashes in PA when Americans defend Washington, DC, by rebelling against Islamist hijackers. #911 #LetsRoll
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10:14: The White House relays to the National Military Command Center Vice President Cheney's order to shoot down hijacked aircraft. #911
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10:20: @George_WBush, from Air Force One, tells Vice President Cheney that he has authorized a shoot down of aircraft if necessary. #911
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10:28: One World Trade Center (the North Tower) collapses. #911
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10:43: New York Mayor Rudolph Giuliani orders an evacuation of Lower Manhattan. #911
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10:50: Five stories on the western face of the Pentagon collapse. #911
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13:04: President @George_WBush's remarks at Barksdale Air Force Base in Louisiana air: http://youtube.com/watch?v=5JJV_XB70GU #911


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14:39: Asked to estimate the number of casualties at the World Trade Center, Mayor Giuliani replies: "More than any of us can bear." #911
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17:20: Seven World Trade Center collapses. #911
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20:30 President @George_WBush addresses the nation: http://youtube.com/watch?v=YMiqEUBux3o #911


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W. Bank & #Gaza: http://is.gd/f6kd7 #flotilla #Hamas #Israel Saddam: Attacks result from "U.S. crimes against humanity." #Iraq #911 #WAR


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Queen Elizabeth II orders Buckingham Palace guards to play "The Star Spangled Banner" on 9-13-01: http://is.gd/f6oCa #911 #UK #anglosphere


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Memorial Service at St. Paul's Cathedral, London, England, September 14, 2001: http://youtube.com/watch?v=rmpo0csiIMs #911 #UK #anglosphere
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President @George_WBush at Ground Zero September 14, 2001: "I can hear you..." http://youtube.com/watch?v=f4BkzuV0LYE #911 #LetsRoll #WAR


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President @George_WBush speaks at National Cathedral September 14, 2001: http://is.gd/f6nI9 #911 #LetsRoll


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National Cathedral, full prayer service 09-14-01: http://is.gd/f6nKt Bush 41 gives encouragement to @George_WBush: http://is.gd/f6tqj #911




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President @George_WBush address to Congress September 20, 2001: http://is.gd/f6uoh (GWB enters at 21:46) #911 #LetsRoll #WAR #AfPak


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President @George_WBush announces Operation Enduring Freedom re:Afghanistan October 7, 2001: http://is.gd/f6uAm #911 #LetsRoll #AfPak #WAR


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President @George_WBush to police & firefighters November 8, 2001: #LetsRoll! http://is.gd/f6uQs #911 #Flight93 #WAR #AfPak


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#NeverForget ~ http://is.gd/f6vR6 ~ #911 ~ http://is.gd/f6vE3 ~ #LetsRoll

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

A Time for Understanding and Dialog - for Griffins

With the spirit of mutual understanding and dialog sweeping Lower Manhattan, what with the "Park51" Islamic cultural center and a Muslim-friendly gay bar coming soon, I've discerned a social concern of my own: griffins.

You heard me. It's high time that griffins - those majestic half-lion, half-eagle beasts of yore - received a share of the attention lavished for so long on more prominent mythical beasts, such as unicorns. This is America. No animal has more of a right to be mythical than any other.

Yet even in the 21st Century, gorgeous yet virulent anti-griffin hater Greg Gutfeld continues to use his platform at Fox News to bash these beautiful legendary creatures and promote unicorn privilege:



And there's more where that came from. If only Greg's exterior beauty reflected an inner one. {sigh}

We all know by now that Muslims will be welcome at hunky Greg's gay bar, "Dialog." Obviously unicorns and their non-unicorn supporters will be. But what about griffins and their fans? Will Dialog serve carrion along with halal food and drink? Don't bet on it. At least not absent public pressure.

To counter the unicorn-supremacist atmosphere we can expect at sexy Gutfeld's Dialog, I propose to establish a Griffin Cultural Center either next door or across the street. I envision this as a nonprofit 501(c)(3) educational organization to include a small museum of griffin history and culture and a library with resources for and about griffins. There would be conference space and my favorite part - an outdoor café for the warmer months of the year.

So if you know any open-minded or griffin-friendly donors, nonprofit tax lawyers willing to work pro-bono, and/or building owners on Park Place looking to unload small buildings please put them in touch with me. Naturally there would need to be rooftop access for winged griffins to land (pegasi/pegasuses welcome of course).

Also, I haven't settled on a name for the café. I'm open to suggestions.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

A Poem About Trev

This poem was sent to me by a FB friend and fellow "Red Eye" fan during my recent semi-sabbatical from Twitter/FB.

Why did you leave? : ( I had so many fun things to say, and I have missed you so.

I had a break-down yesterday, and thought I would go crazy, just need just a little bit of Trev.

Do you know about withdrawal? I was at the edge, simply at the edge. Insanity loomed, I need a little bit of Trev.

The sky went dark and I got blue, I needed a little bit of Trev.

Screams went high, fists flew by, I needed a little bit of Trev.

I cried and cried until my tears ran dry, until finally I knew that Trev had said goodbye until the second Monday in July.

Still needing a little bit of Trev I went to bed and dreamed a dream of me and Trev on High, by and by in the sky, rainbows one, two, and three.